Peach

Taiyou SAN SAN moriagaru kotoshi wa utaitai
Kibun RUN RUN nomitai houdai waraitai *

Yureru yureru kokoro ni dokidoki shitainaa….
Sore mo sou kana, rakuen
Aa, aa, aa… natsu da ne!!

PEACH!! Hikkuri kaeru ai no MAAKU
Itten de fuantei dakara sugu itten suru dakedo kaeshite miseru yo
PEACH!! Hikkuri kaeru ai no MAAKU
Nanbai mono PAWAA ga hitsuyou ganbatte miseru yo aishichau kara

Yuuutsu ni BAI BAI sonna himawanai mottainai
Dappi de BAI BAI IITOKORO mitara CHANSU desho

Hitamukisa ga daiji ne wasureta ano hi
Itsu no mani yogoretanda?
Aa, aa, aa… jukushi masu!!

BEACH!! Oshiri darake no yuuwaku
sukoshi kurai shinpai shitatte iijanai, shinjiteru kedo
BEACH!! Oshiri ga hoshi kereba ageru wa
Shigekiteki na yoru to iyashi no asayou isuru ne

Suikon da naka ni mazatteta akuma to tenshi
Ose do ose do biki motoni kaeshi tara HAI TACCHI

PINCH!! Nanigoto mo BARANSU o tagai MAIPEESU
RIZUMU ni awasete JANPU!
PINCH!! Yappa isshoni iyouyo iru beki dayo
Kigen naoshite tanoshi mouyo kono natsu wo

PEACH!! Hikkuri kaeru ai no MAAKU
Nanbai mono PAWAA ga hitsuyou ganbatte miseru yo aishichau kara

PEACHXPEACE

I love Ai Otsuka <3

College Apps

EVERYONE IS GETTING SO STRESSED OUT OVER THEM

I didn't get into Yale, I didn't get into Occidental, CALM DOWN!
Listen, take a deep breath
you have to realize that your world is not over
maybe this is an opportunity in disguise
maybe you'll go to another school and meet the person you'll want to spend the rest of your life with
maybe you'll see something in a completely different way
maybe you'll be amazed by something you never had the time or patience to see before, like a ladybird on a leaf and think, "Wow! I can't believe I never saw this before!"
In any case, you have to take it all in strides
I understand it's hard right now
you've put all of yourself into something that doesn't think you're good enough,
well you know what?
If they don't accept you for who YOU are, then THEY're not worth it.

Jisatsu Saakuru

Are you tied to you? Like between you and me, victim and assailant... you and your boyfriend. Can you relate to yourself? Are you connected to yourself? Are you sought by yourself? When the rain dries, clouds form.

Jisatsu Saakuru, (suicide Circle), a Japanese "horror" film by Sion Sono, is a puzzle. It opens with a scene of 54 cheerful teenage girls throwing themselves in front of a train. With ridiculously controversial material, many people think the film is just a sick attempt to get as much gore out of a movie as possible. Americans in particular have criticized the gruesome scenes (yes, it involves rape, killing animals, and suicide; three of the most taboo ideas today) and seen them as Sono's disgusting attempt to push lines as far as possible. However, I think that we as a people are getting too shallow to see the meaning underneath.

While the film, in all its racy glory, does contain gore (the main plot is that detectives are trying to understand why so many people have been committing suicide, what do you expect?), the movie's whole point is to make you question yourself, are you really connected to yourself?

However, to understand whether or not you are connected to yourself, you must first understand what it is to be connected and then how can you make yourself connected. It's a mind blowing concept, but Sono never reveals what the answers to these questions are, rather, leaving each viewer to try and figure out whether or not they are connected. Very appropriate, but infuriating at the same time. After pondering for months, I still can't fathom what it means.

What is connectedness?? Maybe it's when you are sincerely not ashamed of yourself; when you can fully accept who you are and not let what anyone else thinks about who you are matter in the slightest.

Maybe it's simply when you can say, "yes, I am connected to myself," without any hesitation, with no doubt in your mind.

Perhaps you are connected when you choose to live because it makes YOU happy, because you give yourself a reason to live, as opposed to living just because somebody else in the world needs you.

Even though I have musings, I think when I find it, I'll have no doubt that I've found it.

If you have any ideas, any ideas at all, even if you haven't seen the movie, please comment (, even though no one reads my blog haha.).

Can you ever be connected to yourself?

Sore de wa minasan, sayonara